Hi Friends! We made major life shifts in February, so big ups to my nervous system & self worth. January was definitely the peak of sad girl winter, I mean, I hit rock bottom as hard as one could fall, so there was absolutely no way to go other than up. With that being said, it’s important to note that positivity, accountability, and rocks really fueled February for me.
Rocks? Rocks. In reality, it’s the spirituality that I’ve talked about on the blog recently, and keeping crystals in my home. (As well as saging the hell out of it) While it’s still all bananas to me, I do fully believe that these crystals are helping me to manifest my best life. No, keeping rocks around me doesn’t automatically mean that the world inside of my has healed. But, I’ve kept it in practice to make sure I’m thinking about reaching my potential, and pushing myself to that place, while using crystals to meditate and connect with my own spirituality. It’s been an interesting journey to say the least.
As far as accountability goes, you can’t grow until you measure where you’ve failed. Not only was I failing a secret relationship in 2020, I was failing my friendships, I was failing at work, and I was failing myself. I told you all that I recognized that, as I hit rock bottom, but then what? You build. You hold yourself accountable for what’s not working, and you either fix it or you change it. I have hung out with my friends more in the month of February, than I did in all of 2020. I booked a full vacation, with my best friend from back home, who I don’t think I’ve seen since her wedding. I started putting pieces back together, and found that the puzzle pieces fit nicely when you don’t force them. I love my job, I love my boss, and I love all the little side hustles along the way. I started Doordashing, and not only am I making amazing money, I’m also really enjoying it. (Which is weird to me, I never thought I’d like to drive around and deliver food to people)
I also took accountability for myself. I started working out more consistently, stopped guilting myself for eating what I wanted (though, right now I’m in the middle of a challenge, so I’m watching that a little), I started practicing self care (which means little things like good face wash, and a clean home), and the biggest thing that I’ve done for myself in February was getting Botox. Yes, at 29 years old I decided to stick needles in my face. I believe that women are beautiful regardless of their facial lines, but there are definitely things that I see in the mirror that bother me. I’ve always had deep lines in my forehead, as far back as I can remember. They just bugged me. They shouldn’t have, but they did. So when Botox became an option, and my best friend Jessica pushed me into it, I made the jump. My forehead is frozen, I can’t raise my eyebrows, but Lord almighty, you could skate on my face and I love it.
Lastly, I mentioned that positivity has taken me through February. I think general positivity is what made so much of my 2020 incredible, and in about October, I’d lost it. The genuine optimism for life is back, and with it, my zest is renewed. I wake up happy (even when I had a 101 temperature the night before), I roll with the punches (even when plans with people don’t work out), and I go with whatever the universe has in mind for my day. I just kinda, do the damn thing lately, and I’ve become good at it.
It’s all sunshine and rainbows over here… for now at least.